I was just abt to go into my beauty sleep after countless turning and tossing ard when u called at exactly 1:30am....Can't u find a better timing to call! Count urself lucky that I picked up the call which I usually don't if I can't recognize the number. Surprised, of course, to get such a rare overseas call from u. Delighted, I'm certainly not my dear.
Yes I'm still single and available by the way. And there's nothing wrong with me having flings. Call me a slut or a bitch if u want to but pls do take note that I'm NOT ATTACHED to anyone and definitely not with u (which I dun consider it as attached lah)....ever again....therefore I can have as many flings as I want. U have no right to stop or be unhappy abt it just because u never ever gave me up although I already have.
Chance?...I never gave u any chance to make it up?....in fact as far as I'm concern I've given u lots of chanceS with a capital 'S' behind thank u. And darling must I tell u everytime chances were given. I've made known my love to u and I'm definitely not the only one clapping. I'm even willing to go to the extend of sharing my love with that GF of urs. Do u knw how hard is that?
I'm not blaming u or her for that, I've only got myself to blame. But because of love I think every sacrifices that I made are worth it. But what did I get in return? It was as if I never existed at all when she came into ur life. The only time u spent with me was when u two had problems or to satisfy ur own lust! I never complain (chance)...did u ever take notice?
Who was the one who tirelessly give u care n concern when u broke with ur first GF? Who was the one spending time with u before u get to know ur next? Well maybe I deserve it for giving my all! But never once did I ever voiced out how and what I felt inside (chance). U wanna know why? Coz I still love U THEN? And did u ever try to feel for me?
Every opportunity spent with u, I always found myself having to make my own way back or being left by u out of sudden. The reasons u always gave was got an important call got to go. No matter how stupid ur reasons were I did accepted it (another chance). Did u ever care?
And when u were overseas did u ever tried calling me or anything....not even a single letter in sight (chance again). All this waiting and expecting for u to finally appreciates my love has made my heart numb. But I guess it does not matter to u at all.....
Avoiding?....maybe I am but then again maybe I'm giving u a CHANCE to prove ur love to me. No matter how much I tried to avoid u, did u ever tried as hard to meet me.......well I dun think so MISTER.
Well the day that I told u that we had to go separate ways at the airport in 2004 was the day my love for u died. It's been 3yrs already and I've moved on. It's impossible bet us. With all the disappointments that were accumulated throughout all my relationships, it makes me hard to fall in love easily. It made me learnt to expect less in return. It's as if a super thick barier is surrounding my heart. All I know it'll take a lot of effort and sincerity to breakit down before my heart can finally be stolen. And I don't think any Tom, Dick and Harry can.....; p..... So I guess there's no point trying, I'm happy the way I am and I dun need anyone rite now to make me complete..hoped u get all the explanations and reasons that u wanted....thnks for ever loving me, it's a moment I'll cherished a lifetime.....; >
Never Meant To Be,
Bobhoneyz
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